Two years ago I went to World Fantasy in San Jose on a lark. Friends of mine said I had to go, especially since it was local. So I went. And I wound up meeting about half of what would become the Inkpunks.
I felt incredibly awkward and shy, so I drank enough vodka to keep that part quiet. I had little business cards I got off VistaPrint. Someone asked me what I was writing. I dug my toe in the carpet and mumbled something about this book I was working on. The only reason I felt semi-legit was because I knew the area, having lived downtown for over a year.
A year later, I went to World Fantasy in Columbus. We had just fired up the Inkpunks blog and it felt like this silly, wonderful thing, and I wasn’t sure how I got the invite but I wasn’t about to go questioning it. I was still shy enough to need All The Vodka. I had the same VistaPrint business cards. My main levelup was that I had finished a novel, and could describe that novel in one sentence.
Now, it’s a week before World Fantasy in San Diego.
I’ve made two sales, one of them pro. I’ve done a reading (for better or for worse). A totes legit agent has given me incredible crit on my novel and I have done my best with it and that will be going off in a few days. I have nice business cards, custom ones. I’m back to digging my toe in the carpet about what I write. I will still need All The Vodka.
But more importantly, I gained some really good friends. I helped a friend move cross-country. I watched a friend marry the man she loves. I’ve celebrated victories and offered comfort and made care packages and gotten check-in emails when I’ve needed them. I have friends I can count on when shit goes sour. Friends who will go out of their way to make sure I talk to specific people, friends who will understand when I say that I need to go be on my own for a little bit.
The writing stuff will come and go. There’ll be successes, and there’ll be failures. But I know I’ll be able to handle all the madness because I have people who are willing to listen to me whine and willing to bolster me when I’m feeling down and who are looking forward to celebrating my triumphs with me.
23/10/2011 at 2:43 am Permalink
Great post. It’s the connections that make this game worthwhile after the dust and whirlwind has settled.